enthralled in the vanity of self-worship

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-11-02T18:49:00

2009-11-02T23:58:30Z

Halloween was oh so much fun!
I was Kat von D and mike was a McPoyle from It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia.
I covered my arms in temporary tattoos and put in my extensions. It was a great weekend. Oh and I want to show a picture of the pumpkin I carved in art class. Its a cyclops.

Maybe i will post more pictures later.
Friday we went to our friend Laurens house and Saturday was our friend Marks house. We were suppose to go to Fells Point but it was raining.

I was happy Ballet was canceled today and I could come home earlier than usual to relax. I love just doing that.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-10-29T21:05:00

2009-10-30T01:08:26Z

Birthday was Monday and it was really nice. I got to spend time with friends and family. Tomorrow is the halloween party and I am going to dress up as Kat von D i think. I'm going to buy a bunch of temporary tattoos for my arms itll be fine. I love halloween time. I got to carve pumpkins, eat caramel/candy apples, candy corn, and wear my bat earrings.

Fall is just so pretty. The smell, the leaves, the trees, the moon, the weather. Just lovely. I wish it wouldn't end.

I am doing good in 50% of my classes. I wish it were 100% :)

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-10-05T22:15:00

2009-10-06T02:26:31Z

Hello all.
Urban Legands is fun to watch. I can usually tell if they're lying or not when it begins. It is funny though.

Went to get my car checked out. It had been making noises for a while and it ended up being nothin major. Some loose screw and something bent. WHEW, I thought it was going to be another super expense.

School is fine. Makes me so tired though.
The online class has been great SO FAR...
ART fun as always
Math, blehhh not my thing
Ballet, fun but fast paced.

Now it's the best part of the day to just lay around with my love!

OH YEAH Flapjack's Adventure Bound game on cartoon network's site is so awesome!! 289,625 points so far.

blah boring.
ohhh Pitt this Friday!! yay!!
I get to see AFI. I hope they play a bunch of old stuff as well. I'm not into too much of their newer stuff. I haven't gotten "Crash Love" yet. I also am going to see my first college football game and take a plane ride alone. I am really excited though because it is going to count as vacation days so I will be getting paid for it.

AND at work, they hired me to work in the office as a "receptionist" pretty much. I am so happy, I have been wanting to work in the office for a while now because I stay busy in there. When I am on the canvassing (800) side, it is that same repetitive stuff constantly!
I began in the office on Thursday and today they wanted me to canvass because a lot of people called out :-( I got a raise though!! A WHOLE DOLLAR! :):):):):):):)

I am finally uploading pictures from the summer! HAHA. It has taken so long because my computer doesn't just take the card, you need to plug it in and my camera ran out of batteries.
Maybe I will post some pics!

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-09-28T23:28:00

2009-09-29T03:29:32Z

Since when did The Misfits become so trendy????

OH and Empire Records, classic.
Not ready for reality just yet.

not trying to read 50 pages for class tomorrow.

2009-09-13T20:37:14Z

1. Kissed your cousin: on the cheek for a goodbye/hello! not in a weird way...
2. Ran away: i don't think so, probably wanted to. actually right now is a perfect example.
3. Pictured your crush naked: yeah and seen him nakers
4. Skipped school: couple times...haha the few times i did, something bad always happened!
5. Broken someone's heart: maybe. not on purpose though.
6. Been in love: yes :)
7. Cried when someone died: no one that was close enough. knock on wood.
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have:Yes but not anymore
9. Broken a bone: actually....no
10. Done something embarrassing: Of course. I am human.
11. Lied: yes.
12. Cried in school: Yeah I have. and at work.

WHICH IS BETTER...
13. Coke or Pepsi: I would have to say...coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: Sprite probably
15. Girls or Guys: Deffff guys.
16. Flowers or Candy: candies
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: scruffy mufffyy
18. Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes
19. Bitchy or Slutty: I rather someone be slutty than a bitch. I hate bitches.
20. Tall or Short: Taller than me plz
21. Pants or Shorts: Pantss
22. Night or Day: I love the night time.

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
23. What do you notice first: their face
24. Last Person You Slow Danced With: Mike B Riehl
25. Worst Question To Ask: oy

THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: an hour ago
27. Stepped outside: 11 this morning

ABOUT YOU...
29. Romantic memory: going places like carnivals or dinner with mike
30. Your Good Luck Charm: wish I had one
31. Person You Hate Most: Depends. I really dislike certain people..
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: Mike
33. On your desk: Pens, psych book, notebook, sketchbook, clothes, pictures.
34. Picture on your desktop: the weirdest thing

FAVOURITE...
35. Color: green
36. Movie: pulp fiction
37. Artist or band: the number 12 looks like you, heavy heavy low low low low low
38. Cars: fun ones
39. Ice Cream: cinnamon buns ben and jerrys
41. Food: so many.........

WHO...
42. Makes You Laugh The Most: Sam
43. Makes You Smile: Mike
44. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: MBR
47. Who Has It Easier?: a lot of the time I feel like everyone does
48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: funny good? or funny bad?

DO YOU EVER...
49. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: use to
50. Save AIM Conversations: nah
51. Save E-mails: not really, unless it's really important
52. Forward Secret E-mails: don't usually write e-mails
53. Wish You Were Someone Else: sometimes. but thats not a good thing.
54. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: i have lol
55. Wear Perfume: once in a while
55. Wear Cologne: no thanks
56. Kiss: yeah
57. Cuddle: i like to
58. Go Online For Longer Than Eight Hours At A Time:i hope nott oh no

HAVE YOU EVER...
59. Fallen For Your Best Friend?: No.
61. Kissed Two People In The Same Day?: nope
63. Been Rejected: yeah
64. Been In Love?: yaa right now
66. Used Someone?: Sadly. Shit happens.
68. Dumped Someone?: Yeeeah
70. Been Kissed?: Yessir
71. Done Something You Regret?: It isn't good to live with regret. But sometimes I do. About certain things.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You Touched?: mike? i think.
73. You Talked To?: My mom.
74. You Hugged?: jared or nic
75. You Instant Messaged?: james
76. You Kissed?: jeeeez again? mike.
77. You Yelled At?: nat
78. You Thought About?: idk
79. Who Text Messaged You?: chelsea
80. Who Broke Your Heart?: dont remember
81. Who Told You They Loved You?: m

MORE ABOUT YOU...
82. Color Your Hair? yeah quite often. right now i like the color
84. Have Piercings?: 14
85. Have A boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yerp
86. Own A Webcam?: came w the book :)
88. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer?: Yes. Im just procrastinating
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: uhh no
90. Habla espanol?: some
91. Quack?: quack.

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen Anything?: Yeah not in a while though
93. Smoke?: Yes
94. Schizophrenic?: no
95. Obsessive?: no
96. Compulsive?: no
97. Obsessive compulsive?: no
98. Panic?: no
99. Anxiety?: yesss
100. Depressed?: sometimes

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-08-30T16:50:00

2009-08-30T20:58:30Z

School is tomorrow. I am still in summer mode. I just completed my first assignment for my online class. WEIRD. Happy to get it done early though.
My goal is to not have ANY panic attacks this semester. Working everyday and taking 5 classes. We shall see.

Oh and is it weird that my 17 year old sister is now dating one of my close guy friends who is 22?
I don't really know.
The age thing isn't that big of deal, it is just the point of it.
It's a little strange...

byebye sweet summertime :(

dog farts are the worst smell in the world.

2009-08-27T20:20:01Z

addicted to portugal the man right now.

So! I am really excited for OCTOBER 9th... I am going to visit Julie in Pittsburgh! and we are going to see AFI. I'm excited. I really enjoy their old stuff but hey they use to be my obsession. I am really really excited to see her and them. She bought me my ticket for my birthday since its a few weeks difference.

Mom and Nat are in Cancun. Must be nice!

Oh and I am making a bunch of beaded jewelry. Its really relaxing and am hoping to sell some soon!

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-08-16T21:34:00

2009-08-17T01:34:47Z

I was denied my financial aid.

Now I am fucked.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-08-04T20:39:00

2009-08-05T00:45:35Z

i am sickkkkkkkkkk.
can't hear
can't breathe
feel dizzy
boo.
but one of my step brothers is in from NJ!
yay!
and I am filling in for the office at work and it makes the day go by sooo much faster.
woo
beach/salisbury this weekend with mike, alex, scott, jared, maybe my sister.
i need a vacationnn.

and my step-dad can be a complete jerk.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-07-31T14:06:00

2009-07-31T18:27:35Z

MAJOR VENTING ALERT

So I was asked to drive to Colorado with my two close friends to take one of them to school with her car, then get a plane back to baltimore. I've always wanted to drive across the country or just really really far. But, since I have to work (and they don't) I CAN'T go. It's so upsetting to me. It makes me have this resentment towards them that isn't their fault. At the same time, my one friend doesn't realize how much dumb shit she talks about and I listen to but then when I talk to her abuot MY problems which ARE NOT about this guy, that guy, this bar, fake ID's!, and other people, then she doesn't really listen. I KNOW she thinks shes better than me. She said something that really upset me the other day. I was telling her how I might not be able to go to school this semester because of financial aid and I can't afford it...and she was saying how just at least take a class or two and blah blah blah. Then she said you can get loans and then even though teachers to make much, pay the back once youre a teacher. And I know how she is, and since shes a PSYCH major and can have her mommy and daddy pay for her grad school and all that other stuff to make her more successful than me, she did not have to say that. She said youll have just enough to get by. FUCK HER i can't deal with her anymore. Last night while I was sleeping, she texted me saying "Hi I'm at the tavern with people and just saw kelsey" then a few minutes later she said someone else she saw. She never use to go out and wanted to bad to "go out" and go to parties and do this and that, all the stuff thats not her. Then she likes to talk about it and i dont care AT ALL. anyway, I responded by saying "Im sleeping and I dont care who u saw have fun" yeah that sounds bitchy and it is but i REALLY dont like hearing about the pointless shit that makes her think shes so much better than me. I shouldn't have let all this build up then make a bitchy reply but i dont care. she gets on my nerves now and shes suppose to be my best friend. Good to know that she can go out every night and have fun and sleep in during the day and ask for anything. Yeah I get to go to sleep at 12 and wake up at 8 and go to work till 4 then work out and shower and drive my sister around and pay for my car, insurance, everything else. Yeah I have other things she doesnt. I am so much stronger than her, and am able to deal and do things on my own.

MAYBE I'm just jealous.
MAYBE I'm just being stubborn.
MAYBE we're not meant to be friends.

To top that off... I work hard at work and am asked to do a lot of other things other people in my position don't do. Both of my managers at work both have drug problems. Sometimes they're clean sometimes they're not. Right now they are not. They are THE most bitter people ever. I threw a highlight at the wall out of anger and I always do to get some stress out in my office (stupid, I know) and the lady that sits in the same office does the same thing so she was laughing today when I did it. And Rob, one of the managers, busts open our door and was like "IS the day over????? wow looks like you guys are done for the day!!!!!" and I had written up 4 orders today (which is pretty good for a friday) and she was being a total fucking jerk. He knows how hard I work!! It ruined my day.

fucking people.

I am going to the gym now and going to punch a punching bag.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-07-16T22:46:00

2009-07-17T03:03:40Z

So my baby Daisy is really sick. She's my doggy who, to me, is like my child. I love her with all my heart and care so much about her. She has internal bleeding for some reason so shes been at the animal hospital for the past 2 days :-(
I am just so worried about her and upset. I just want her to be better and back in my arms.
Anyway, my mom just started this job a month or two ago and they don't pay her that well. She was unemployed for a few months so money is pretty tight. My step dad pays for all the big bills so he doesn't want to pay the bill for Daisy.... Since I make decent money, I have to pay. I am not upset because even though its my families dog, I still want to make sure she gets what she needs. I just wish it wasn't like this. I'm only 19 and work full time and go to school full time. I am trying to save money (which i have) for a place sometime soon. I have some money saved but not that much. This shouldn't really be left up to me, but I kind of feel I have no choice in this matter.
So far the bill is 400 and that was yesterday so she stayed last night and is there now (tonight) and most likely not going to be ready to come home tomorrow. I really hope shes better tomorrow. I hope with all my heart she will get better now. She is just a little lover.

Today I was with my best friend and her family is more well off than mine. She wants to get laser hair removal so her mom said she'd give her $500, just like that. After her mom said 500, my friend asked her for $600 instead.
SO unnecessary.

Life is filled with tests and choices to be made.
Just sayin.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-07-15T00:30:00

2009-07-15T04:33:14Z

PISSED because I finally got the courage to go to get my hair done professionally and i cant even tell the difference from before.

I wanted honey highlights in my dark brown hair and you can barely tell theyre there!!!!!!!

I spent almost 100 dollars on this and i fucking pretended I was happy and I am not.
Im stupid.

I don't want to go back and complain I just am really disappointed now.

I am also really sad because my Daisy baby girl is really sick and inthe doggy hospital. She is seriously my life and I cant deal with this!! It is making me crazy, Daisy.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-07-08T19:47:00

2009-07-08T23:54:34Z

I just saw something gross.
i wanna get my hair cut and colored sometime soon. I usually do it myself but its nice to relax and have it done for you :) `
Today was back to work and it sucked.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-07-07T19:20:00

2009-07-07T23:27:44Z

Hello, hello. Day 6 of being sick. Finally made it to the doctors/Patient First yesterday. Negative for the mono, positive for the strep. Feeling better today, thanks to the antibiotics! The 4th was fun! Mike and I got some friends together and had a little cookout/shin-dig... it was really nice. I was so glad Dena ended up not having to work, since otherwise, I would have been the only girl.... That is usually the case, but it is always nice having your best friend there. Its nice just laying around doing nothing. I needed this break emotionally and physically. It's back to work tomorrow. Sometimes I hate going there so much, but you gotta do what you gotta do.

advil

2009-06-19T22:26:29Z

hmmm didddleee dooo...

I want to re-do my room.

My room is kind of the same looking since middle school.
Random things stuffed into one little room.
My art, posters, clashing fabrics, blah.
Its fun and it has been like this for a while.
Since i moved into a new house about 2 years ago, I thought I would do something new. BUT no.
I love decorating and getting new things but I will be sad to take down my many posters and pictures.
I want a theme, and pretty colors.
I love Pier 1. That is what has inspired me to make the change.

I don't know if I could do it though. I love my things and have no where to put them if I take them down/away.

OOOH i joined a gym woo.
Joined about 3 weeks ago and have been working out almost everyday.
So proud of myself. Even with really busy days, I dedicated at least an hour or 2 no matter what time it is.
I have had some days off because it is hard to go every day and you aren't suppose to workout 7 times a week.
I wonder if I've lost weight. I doubt it because i haven't been eating much better. Bad girl.
I have felt better and less stressed which is a majorrrr change for me.

I am going to take down all of my posters now and see what happens.
Hey, I can always put them back up.
Buut i like having my art up. I could frame it so it looks nicer. HMmmmm.
I think I am typing my thoughts out now.

Here we go..

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-05-28T16:55:00

2009-05-28T20:56:08Z

I love Jelly Belly's

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-05-28T16:44:00

2009-05-28T20:55:32Z

I got my grades back for the semester.
They arent bad, compared to previous years, but I worked soooo hard. Of course there is always working harder than that, but trying to work alll the time, then go to school when I am not working, its hard.
I got an A, 2 B's, and a stupid C. It brought down my GPA and it makes me mad.
One of those B's should have been an A and that C should have been a B.
I never missed a class, always participated, studied, and I did all of the work.
I have no choice but to work. I have to make my own money, I really don't have a choice.
I am sure if I had it good like my friends, I would have gotten straight A's too. They are allowed all the time in the world to study and they are handed money.
They don't have to work. They just get to go to school and get good grades all day.
I know those grades aren't that bad, but I know i deserved better.
I wanted to keep my GPA up.
Mike did so good. I am proud of him.

Besides all of that, I had a nice trip to Atlantic City with the family.
Got to hangout with the step-brothers. They are so awesome.
I wish I could see them more often.

'Till next time.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-05-14T20:47:00

2009-05-15T01:04:20Z

wow i can't believe I haven't posted an entry in 4 weeks. well I've been busy with school and work. THANK god finals are next week. I am sooo ready for it to be over! srsly.

ANYWAY
I was offered a job at this day care which is cool. But I have a job already and I will have been working there for a year in June. wow. sometimes i just want to quit there so bad but Im use to it so it would be hard to get situated somewhere else. It definatly better than working at the salon. That was so annoying. So yeah I want to take the daycare job cause its with kids and thats what I want to do when I graduate. Teach are to kids. So, that would be very good for the future BUT i am doing good at my job now and was kind of promoted and I make decent money right now for this point in my life, so why go somewhere for much less money? Yeah, it will probably be less stressful working there opposed to where I work now....but I am trying to save as much money as I can now while still living home.

Another thing is after CCBC (community college)... I am thinking of Towson because it is still close, like 20 minutes, but it is its own little town so it will still be a change compared to home. I don't know if I want to stay in Maryland. I really wanted to go to UArts in Philly because I LOVE that city and the school is cool too. It would also look good considering the art part in my wanted career. But Towson is known for their amazing teaching program and art apparently. With either one I pick, i don't know what I am going to do money wise. Yeah I have money saved but not NEARLY enough for college tuition. HAHAHA I started laughing out loud at that! There is always aid, grants, and loans, but I dont want to spend the rest of my life paying them back.

Oh dilemmas dilemmas, at least they're positive ones.

I am so tired after a long day. Last official day of class for me, can't wait till next friday for all the studying, papers, projects, and finals to be DONE!!!!!!

I want to visit Julie at Pitt. Maybe I can see what that schools about.
I also want to visit Ben and Dan (step bros) in NJ
AND I want to go to Cedar Point!
ANDDDDD I want to go to California!
ANDDDDDDD I want to go camping.
Damn I just want to go everywhere huh.
At least summer is around the corner.

I'd like to plan a big road trip.
That would be amazing.

OMG NUMBER 12 and PROTEST THE HERO SHOW WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZZINGGGGGGG
THE BEST EVER!!!!!!!!! I LOST MY SHOE AND EVERYTHING haha
oh AND I hugged Jase (singer of number 12) wowowo (drool)
two legendary bands in one little venue=heaven. that all.

:)

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-04-12T12:01:00

2009-04-12T16:07:21Z

This past week was my spring break. It was relaxing and nice.
I got to house/dog sit again but for the whole week.
Theyre coming back today. And it is easter.
I get to celebrate with boy and his fam.
It is also passover and I am not even suppose to eat bread.
Oh welll, already did!

I don't feel like getting up.
I have been working out everyday I have been here (since tuesday)
They've got a nice workout room and bathtub and everything wonderful.

It feels good to workout everyday. It is so convenient when you have
the equiptment there all the time. Whenever you want.

I am thinking about joining the gym.
I have other financial things to attend to though.
That stupid medicine. Well no, that "stupid" medicine saved my life.
It sucks it costs so much.
I'll be off of it one day, I hope soon.
The cost of staying clean. (haha)
Replace one thing for another really.
This is better than that

adios :-)

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-03-29T19:15:00

2009-03-29T23:29:59Z

I made two new bracelets and a pretty sweet necklace.
I'm glad I've been making all of this jewelry lately, it's fun and relaxing.

I got to dog/house sit this weekend which was nifty.
Mini vacation.
Funnnn Times.
Now I am back home.

Tonight I better be able to watch last weeks heroes. I need to catch up for tomorrow.
I hate missing episodes!!

Sushi Time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!

2009-03-24T02:40:05Z

Today is my Mama's birthday! YAYy. I surprised her with a delicious boston cream CAKE!
It was so good! And we ate sushi! Major Yum!!

Today was good.
Yesterday was too.
And the day before.

I went to the Hookah bar friday night with my two best friends Dena and Steph.
I'm glad we haven't drifted much since high school.

haha. I just wrote this really long entry and erased it. Oh well, it's not important.

Ohh I got (clip-in) extensions, I'll put pictures up later, they're A LOT of fun!
PLus I can take them out and put them in whenever I want :-)

Ta Ta!

procrastination.

2009-03-16T02:26:10Z

Wow. I have a paper to write and have yet to begun.
Yeah it is due tuesday and I had a week to do it (ha).
I planned on working all day to clean and do work/study..
BUT I woke up with a migraine. Which sucks. I ended up sleeping until 6:30
Woke up in between to shower, but damn, it was killer.
Right behind my EYE!

So why not procrastinate some more and post a lovely live journal entry?
At least I got a lot of much needed rest, I am happy about that.

This weekend was nice. I went on a hike on friday at Oregon Ridge Park, oh how I
love that place!

Mike went to go look at the apartment we want on Main Street.
Rent is really reasonable, but it is so close to our houses.
And the gas and electric pretty much costs as much as the rent. ffuck tthat.
So pretty much we thought about it, and I think we are just going to save
up more money and find the perfect location. Plus we're in no rush.
It would just be nice. Sometimes I can't stand coming home.
But things have been good at home. Not much bad stuff has been going on.
I've just been keeping myself busy, trying to go to meetings, going outside, and
trying to work hard in school.

OHHhh, Soooooooo--
SATURDAY, me, my friends Scott, MB, Cory, and Mike, we were driving around..
We had just come from record and tape traders in Westminister (about 20 min from my house)
and were going back around Resiterstown (where I live) to go get something to eat
at Red Robin (yumm). Anyway, we were driving on Deer Park Road around my house where there is a park with trails and pretty outdoorsy things. We drove by that area and there was a car on fire. Well, not the whole car, just the
TRUNK! How does a trunk catch on fire? We were guessing some crazy person
killed someone and stuffed them in the trunk and the set them on fire. Who knows what really happened? So Mike wanted to go make sure there wasn't anyone in the car (which is nice of him) but everyone was yelling to keep driving because when a car is on fire, it is bound to EXPLODE at any second! We kept driving and were like wow we should go back to see if it exploded, etc. About 5 minutes later, we went back and there was tonsss of smoke and half the car was gone! At that point the fire trucks, cops, and ambulances already had arrived.
It was cooler than it sounds. I never saw a care on fire like that. All by itself at 11 at night, the TRUNK on fire?? What the hell? Maybe we sorta witnesses something crazy.
Who knows.
It was cool though!

OKAY,,,
I think it's REALLY time to start my 3-5 page, double spaced, paper for speech class.
I've procrastinated enough!

Catch yaw later.

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-03-13T18:35:00

2009-03-13T22:41:50Z

So I have two dreads. Haha.
One was an accident and the second one well was on purpose.
I like them, there are beads in them too. I was bored oh well.
I would love to dread my whole head but I "dread" (haha) the whole shaving your head part.

Mike wants to go to Franklin Middle School play. I asked him,
"Do you know anyone that will be in it?" he said "no".
Then I thought about it, why not go to a middle schools play?
It wont hurt. and afterwards we can always go wherever.

I am tired.

Luckily its friday though.
I wait for this day to come.
The week goes by slow but at the same time with work AND school it kinda goes fast.

I love my mom.
I am going to go say
hi
to
her.

Love,
Laur-AHHh

laura_sucks999 @ 2009-03-10T20:27:00

2009-03-11T00:29:40Z

HOW DO YOU GET PRETTY LAYOUTS!? WITH COOL COLORS?? and pretty pictures?

i forget.
and how do you get friends on this piece. Damn.

Writer's Block: Passing Time

2009-03-10T20:24:38Z

When you're stuck in a boring class or meeting, what's your favorite way to keep yourself entertained (or at least from falling asleep)?

View 500 Answers

Defiantly doodling.